Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I press on towards the prize

The honeymoon is over, the euphoria has worn off, reality is setting in.  No, I am not talking about Obama becoming president, I'm talking about grad school.   At the beginning of September, I was feeling 80% excitement, 10% fear and 10% anxiety.  Now the latter two emotions have essentially displaced the first and my excitement solely resides in the anticipation for the semester to end.  

The only thing that's getting between me and carefree frolic in my winter E-town (albeit snowless) wonderland is three action-packed weeks filled with 4 exams,  1 take home final, 2 group papers and a presentation.  It's not even the final exams that I'm worry about it.  It's the wrapping up of loose ends on these group projects that just never seem to end.  

[On a side note, today I had a regrettable incident, where I called up a team mate whom I felt like was not putting in their fair share of the work. To make the story short, I think I sounded like a whiny, immature a%$ on the phone.  I don't know what happened.  Between me trying to formulate a mature expression of grievance and them picking up the other line, my carefully thought out sentences spewed out of my mouth as typical female, passive-aggressive, verbal diarrhea.  Okay, I might have exaggerated a bit.  It probably wasn't that bad.  Either way, that individual didn't seem to react too badly to my stressed out comments and promised to shape up and contribute their part ASAP.  Uggh! Situations like this are so humbling and make me realize how much wisdom I lack and how much grace I need everyday.]

So back to the tying up of loose ends.  I've had similar experiences in undergrad near the end of each semesters, where I just feel like "I'm not going to maaaaake it.  I'm not gonnnna maaaake it!"  But lo and behold, everything always gets finished in due time, and in some instance, literally minutes before it's due.  

Okay, I promise to not complain anymore about this.  Really, I won't.  Grad school is awesome and I would not want to be doing anything else right now.  At times like these, you gotta fix your eyes on the prize. 

1 comment:

LazyCoder said...

Fortunately, my last year was filled with group projects with people I could stand. In my fall term, I was working with Jason H. In my winter term I was working with a bunch of fun guys from business. Of course, I also had a partner argue with me all the time and ended up ruining our project. But that's behind me.

It's funny how most of my, and my friend's, experiences with teams are so horrible. I don't know about your field but in computing science it's impossible to work alone. So basically, group projects are our future. Anyways, I'm lucky to be on a team with such great people like Kenny. :)